Someone is engaged!!

And you know what that means, right?!?!? Time to get my ass back to the gym and be serious about it!! I don’t know what it’s actually going to do. I have tried the gym so many times before. And as much as I love the stress reliever part of it, I never actually get much results. I’m sure that’s 100% on me though. I’m going to start going back before the end of the year… Is that gym suicide?? I have a week off from work soon, so I decided I was going to get a jump on it. I am a little nervous about the crowds that will be back in full force. Thankfully, I go to more little gyms that are open 24/7. I’m sure they will still be packed in their own way but it won’t be like those mega gyms. There’s a new mega gym by my house that I would love to try out, but it’s pack all day/every day right now. It opened over the summer, so I’m a little scared to see it in January lol. #NewYearNewME

One of the things I guess you can say about me is I waited forever to get engaged, so I’m being beyond obnoxious about it. I already bought a future Mrs. shirt!! I do want to buy a “sweating for the wedding” type shirts for the gym! I fell down the Etsy rabbit hole… TAKE MY PHONE AWAY FROM ME! My sister in law makes shirts too… but she’s kind of whatever about my wedding or at least that’s the vibe I get from her. Sooooo I don’t know if I want to bother her with making me shirts. I don’t have a wedding party, but my future sister in laws (who I love by the way) plan to go to the gym with me a bunch. I would like to get them some kind of wedding ish workout shirts. Alright time to mentally prepare for the year ahead lol. And I will keep you updated better!

Burnt Out…?

I know I suck and haven’t been posting in about a month… so sorry to the few that actually read this. I think I’m getting a little burnt out. I am an ALL or NOTHING kind of person! I swing between manic and depressed daily. The medication I’m on isn’t helping either. I like my routines. But on the other hand… if I don’t follow my routine, my thoughts become very dark. I guess going to the gym 5-7 days a week is too much! I really did enjoy going that much but it was hard finding the time to go that much. So, I stopped all together cause that’s the kind of person I am. It’s like that with many things that are in my life. But once I finally go I’m right back into going all the time but I can’t find the energy to actually go. I’m just happy I still go once a week to Zumba.

I’m Back!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It’s been a bad month and a half… LIKE FOR REALS! I know I talked briefly about my problems last month but it didn’t stop there. I also go staph on my neck which was awesome. And by the time I figured out what is was I gave it to my boyfriend. ANDDDDD…. I learned I got it from the gym I go too… FUN! Once that had went away quickly, thankfully, I got sunburn so bad I blistered twice and peeled like 3 different times. I miss a bunch of work cause I couldn’t move. I probably gave myself sun poisoning too. I actually tried to go to the gym the first day. THAT was a BIG mistake lol. BUT wait there’s more!!! I caught bronchitis for a couple of weeks, cause I grew up going to the doctor’s as a last resort. Finally, my dog has given me fleas. Thanks doggo! So, to say I gave up on life for a while is an understatement.

With all the BS above, I went to the gym for the first time this month today. It was great, I really did miss the gym. I went all of 4 times in June. Two of those times was when I was visiting my grandma in Missouri. Bonus points, I haven’t gained any real weight without tracking my meals or working out either. I’ve given up on tracking my calories right now. I have trained my body to stop over eating. If I feel like I’m sliding back into old habits I will track again.

July Goals:

  • Go to the gym more frequently.
  • Try more meatless meals. I want to start adding in tofu more. It will be hard with my family…
  • Seriously need to start blasting more. It’s booty short season!

April/May Check in

**I’m late, I know I am a bad person.

My weight has been all over the place the past couple of weeks. I didn’t do any of my goals last month… OOPS! I wanted to eat more veggies, go to more classes, and take measurements of my body. I still have time to start the last one with measurements. The veggie thing is stupid! I literally have cans and frozen vegetables in the house too… I finally got a swimsuit, so hopefully I will take a swim class. BUT that means I have to start shaving my legs more. BOOOOOOOOOOO! And I still really need to use my fasciablaster more. I think I kind of stopped cause I was making new bents in my booty.

MAY GOALS:

  1. Go to the gym everyday to help with my challenge. I get at least 2 off days a week to skip, but that’s only extreme cases.
  2. Find new work out routines to add in once a week, plus swimming.
  3. Try to learn how to reduce my fat intake. It’s out of hand. I really thought when I started my food diary, it was going to tell me my carbs were out of hand. I was waaaaaay wrong.

Weight In!
Near the beginning of April I weighted in at 161.4. And near the end of April I was the lowest I’ve been in forever at 157.3. That was awesome except I gained a crap ton back… 2 issues I have with my numbers are what is fat or muscles?? And the floor isn’t level in the bathroom. SO I never truly know how much I weight. But I’m going to keep pushing forward. I have faith that it will be all worth it in the end.

FML…

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO my fat ass gained 6 pounds in the last week. Like for reals?! FML! It was a perfect storm of overeating and not going to the gym. Yes, my body is that sensitive to weight gain. I think I’m starting to learn I overeat when I’m out with friends. I’m ok with my boyfriend cause I eat dinner with him almost every night. But when I go out with friends it’s normally bad and fatty foods. Don’t get me wrong I love me some Hooters, but it’s not good for me to eat it more than once a week when I’m trying to lose weight. It’s hard to have willpower when I go out to eat, my friends don’t make the best food choices or don’t care about calories like me. I’m back to a strict(ish) diet and going to the gym daily. It’s beyond frustrating when I was making such progress…

Shopping

Shopping is always an annoying task when you are not skinny.

So I’ve been talking about going to the pool at my gym for awhile now. Small ish problem… I only have bikinis… more than I would like to admit too. I went to Walmart to grab a cheap bathing suit. Let’s be really real Walmart has cheap ass bathing suits. I’m not about to ruin one of my $40 suits at a high chlorine pool. If it dies, it dies. I’ll just grab another one next Spring. Sadly, after trying on the only 4 decent ones that were in my size… I found one lol! It looks like that traditional grandma bathing suit with flowers all over it. It comes up to my ribs in the back! I’ve never been this covered to go swimming before, AND I’M A GINGER! It’s not horribly ugly or anything. It’s just something I’ve never worn before or I thought I wouldn’t at this age lol. I’ll be swimming this Tuesday or Thursday… I can’t wait to add swimming to my workout routine for something need and I have bad knees.

New Challenge Pt 2

So Monday was the first day and OF COURSE I have a huge migraine that wouldn’t quit. Well, that means I actually started yesterday. And to top it off I gained weight from Easter… long story short, I sat on my ass all day and ate. I just want to take a minute to talk about how awesome this 1stPhorm app is! The workouts are fun because you can determine what style of working out you like… circuit, HIIT, traditional, and 1 more but I can’t remember. I chose traditional cause I’m still new at doing the whole routine thing. I had arm day, leg day, and abs. I’m learning that it’s better to target certain areas of your arms. I’m definitely feeling it more the next day. My favorite thing about the app is that it has videos next to what the exercise is. I familiar to most the ways to work out, just not the names. And it gives you modifications if you can’t handle that exercise or maybe you have bad wrist/knees. Zumba is still going to be my Wednesday work out. I plan on adding it in one more day in the week. Not sure if I want to add it on Tuesdays or Thursdays… Plus, I want to add in swim class too. Or at least add swimming into my weekly or biweekly routine. There’s a pool at the gyms I go too. I really need to fit in walking the dog in there too. I haven’t took him for a long walk in a long time. We normally would do about 2 miles around the pond by my house. So, day 2 is done! ONLY 53 days left…

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Food!

So I’m sure you’ve seen those memes on facebook about eating healthy… I eat whole meals. Whole pizzas, whole box of Oreos… etc etc. I was always the unhealthy eater that would laugh at those memes and be like same! Don’t get me wrong, I still struggle not to eat more than my daily calorie allowance. BUT… I have noticed that now when I do eat over my calories, like more than 300+, my stomach is bloated and hates me. I never in my wildest dreams thought that this would be my life lol. I used to eat until it hurt to bend over and tie my shoes on a regular. And the WORST part was that made me happy. Now I live by my food journey and the gym. I really don’t do cheat days either cause what I stated before. When they say working out in a lifestyle/mindset, they do mean it. I’m trying to explain to one of my friends to join this program that is cheaper than most gym memberships, but she is happy going to a basic bitch gym. I guess it works for her, because she rarely goes to the gym. I was once like her and I didn’t fully see the value in going to a real nice gym. She might change too one day…

**Small information about redheads, we are at a higher rate to get Prader-Willi Syndrome. So there’s always been a joke that I have it. I also used to say that I had a tapeworm which I named Pepe… why I named it that I don’t know?!

Vacation is OVER

So I got back from Las Vegas on Friday night… I’ll skip over all the delicious food I ate. But I do want to talk about how I actually lost weight surprisingly enough. I think the amount of water I drank helped. I’m from the Midwest, we drink water when we are thirsty lol. In Vegas, you have to drink all day or you dehydrate and die. No one loves a migraine more than me *insert eye roll*. I averaged about 13k steps a day out there minus Saturday, I had a wedding. Sunday I went to C2E2 which was also a lot of walking at the nerd convention. I did find the gym at Caesar’s, it was ranked one of the top gyms on the strip. It wasn’t amazing… curious to know what a horrible gym looks like. Only downside to this gym is it closes at 6pm everyday. Like REALLY??? It’s Las Vegas! I am pretty proud that I went to the gym while on vacation. I’m determined to stick to this food diary and working out multiple times a week. I have friends that help motivate me to get my booty to the gym. And I have my apps that help me not over eat. I wouldn’t mind getting one of those workout apps, but they are all expensive subscriptions. I don’t have that money right now. AND if I did I would just get a personal trainer. The free session I got from the gym was awesome! Just out of my budget at the moment. And on that note, I’m off to the gym!

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March Goals

***So every 1st of the month I want to write down all my goals for the month. And at the end of the month, I will review how I felt about said goals!

Goals

  1. Get my ass to the gym more. February was a bad month for me mentally. I want to get back into a regular routine. I started going to Zumba on Wednesdays with a friend from high school.
  2. Doing my food diary everyday! I go through waves of really wanting to do it and getting lazy. I started using MyFitnessPal app again… I FINALLY got my Fitbit to sync my steps with it. I like how it shows me my macros and shows them in pie charts… I like pie…
  3. Use my Fasciablaster after the gym. Plus, 1 or 2 more days a week. I’m already seeing some results from it.

I want to go slow with the goals, because I don’t want to overload myself. If I fail at one I’ll get distracted and stop. I want to add in weight and maybe pictures if I feel brave enough!

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