Another Setback

I went clothe shopping again… and I know this really doesn’t have to do with fitness…

It’s just beyond frustrating when I try and shop for pants/shorts. And here starts my downfall… Like I’ve been pretty strict with my calories. I don’t really drink pop or sweet tea anymore. I don’t really snack or eat any chocolate. I used to eat chocolate at LEAST once a day! I go to the gym 4 to 6 days a week, sometimes everyday. This has been going on pretty strong since the beginning of March and half ass since January, it’s now almost June. I needed to buy new shorts cause I can’t really fit in any of mine from last summer, and I want new ones for the cruise in 2 weeks. I grabbed the higher of my normal size cause I’m too lazy to bring 2 sizes of the same pair to the dressing room lol. AND GUESS FUCKING WHAT?! They don’t fit, like popped can of biscuits don’t fit… I am now the owner of the largest pair of shorts I’ve ever owned. It makes continuing this fitness journey very hard. Why?! I’ve been breaking my back trying to lose the littlest of weight and I freaking can’t. Why not go back to being a slob and enjoying food and still being the same size??? At least I would be a happy fat ass… I’ll keep being strong for now but my crazy fitness life might have a shelf life.